Hiding the Pain

You look in the mirror
Can't stand what you see.
In your eyes you see the hate
That you've buried conveniently.
You've wiped away the tears too long
It's all breaking you inside.
Your past remedies have failed you before
So what will you do this time?

You could cut it away
Starve for three days
Take another pill
To see if you feel it still.
Numb the pain
So you will feel nothing
And more and more
You hate what you're becoming.  

You take a deep breath
As you take a step outside,
Believing people can only see
The faults you try to hide.
You know that you've been here before
Looking over the same ledge.
In the past you've let it break you
Now what will save you from the edge?

You could slash it away
Don't eat for four days
You could swallow some more pills
To see if you feel it still.
Numb the hurt
Until you feel nothing.
But more and more
You hate who you're becoming.

You know that you've
Lost your control.
Will you just watch
As it's taking its toll?

You look in the mirror
Pretend to like what you see.
Wear a fake smile
To hide the pain, conveniently.